3rd Session

Hey lovelies,

It's working. Definitely.

Really, it's quite amazing. I have not binged, or come even CLOSE to ANY sort of out of control eating for an entire week.

I ate when I felt hungry, stopped when I was full. I haven't been able to clean my plate most of the time even when the portions are medium sized.

I had a bit of an urge once, just once. I was reaching for the carton of icecream when I asked myself the questions my therapist hypnotised me to use. Do I need this? Will I feel bad about this later? If my sister (little sister, she is quite a bit over weight and I try my best to help her control her eating) were to reach for this, would I approve?

No, No, No.

Three quick no's later, the fridge was shut, spoon back in drawer and all cravings gone.

Holy crappers.

I've also been more keen on exercise. I dunno, I just WANT to move now. It's so weird.

The therapist has also offered me more free sessions. He is amazing. 4 hours would total to about... $450-600 Canadian... and he's doing it all for free since I'm having so much progress. Wow.

However, there is some bad news:

My mom is on to me. At least, she's unhappy about the changes in my eating habits. She's unhappy about my being a vegetarian (She wants me to go back to being pescatarian.) and the fact that I leave food on my plate.

She's the classic type of mom who shows her love by feeding you. *sigh*

I know she's just caring for me, but she needs to understand that I'm sick and tired of carrying these extra 20+ pounds around.

Anyways, I wanted to weigh myself for the first time this week, but I realized I just drank a bowl of soup and a lot of water. :(

Will weigh myself tomorrow morning.

Hope all is going well with you guys. I love all your blogs and comments. Even if I don't comment on your blogs or reply to the comments, I read almost every single one. It really means so much to know that there are other people struggling with their weight, the control, and are able to understand how I feel.

Stay strong!
XOXO
Rena

2nd session

Hey lovelies,

The 8 days between session 1 and session 2 was interesting. For the first 4 days, I didn't really have my usual interest in food. As in, I ate when I was hungry, and had no interest in it when I wasn't.

Whoa, weird.

I really didn't notice how much I thought about food until I STOPPED thinking about it.

My 'full signals' also worked better, for the lack of a better phrase. There were no binges because after I was full, (not stuffed), I just lost interest in my meal.

It was greatttt.

However, like my hypnotist said, the first session isn't normally EXTREMELY effective; it takes a couple of weeks. So, after 4 days, my old habits started coming back. I had a binge, and rest of the time, snacked a lot. :(

After a good 4 days, and then a bad 4 days, I saw him again, and it feels more effective this time like he said it would.

During the second session, we didn't just deal with weight/eating issues, we also talked about my self esteem, my panic attacks, school, stress, etcetc.

The session was the day before my SAT's, (I live in Canada, but I'm trying to get into UC Davis since it has one of the best graduary schools for veterinarians) so we did a lot of calming exercises.

We figured out that I am a classic stress-eater/borderline bulimic. (Confession: During my hiatus I purged a few times.) He taught me ways that I could hypnotize myself to be less stressed whenever I felt a binge/panic attack coming on.

So, all in all, it's been 12 days since my first session. I've lost about 4 pounds (I need a new scale. Mine is not exactly accurate) and am back at 143. 4 days since my last session and I haven't binged once. I've had one or two moments where I've wanted to, but it was pretty easy to control.

I've also joined the SSPO challenge with Mad Bird (hope you're doing well, love! I've missed you too!).

♥ SSPO Challenge ♥

(Oct. 2 - Nov. 1)

1. Lose a minimum of 5 pounds.
2. Drink at least 50 oz. of water a day.
3. No soda unless it's DIET.
4. Absolutely NO Halloween candy.
5. No ice cream or cake.
6. No second helpings at meals.
7. Only fruits and veggies for snacks between lunch and dinner.
8. No more than 1000 calories a day.
9. No eating past 8 pm

I'm having around... 1100-1200 calories a day. I know it's more than what's allowed, but this seems like the amount that makes my body happy in terms of weight loss so I'm going to stick to this for a while. (I'm also doing a lot of yoga and walking to tone). If I start plateauing, I'll adjust as needed.

SW: 147, CW: 143, GW Nov 1: 140.

Stay Strong!
XOXO
Rena

Hypnotherapy Session #1

Hey lovelies,

So, had my first session today. :)

And, I have to say, I quite enjoy it. It was my first time ever, but apparently I went under pretty easily.

It sure felt like it!

It feels like... being under 15 heavy, down blankets, extremely warm, comfortable and relaxed. It's almost like being asleep, without losing conciousness.

Anyways, it's not something where one would see results after 1 session. Typically takes about 3 or 4.

So, we worked on curbing the unneccesary/binge/emotional eating, and upping my exercise.

We're working on reducing my intake by 15-20% at each meal (each meal being a normal, healthy, vegetarian diet) and speed walking 5 hours/week and yoga twice a week.

I felt really relaxed and self assured after my visit. We didn't just talk about eating, but a lot about my past struggles with depression and other things. He brought up a lot of issues that I didn't even realize were connnected.

I had dinner at a little cafe after the session. I had a cup of coffee (black) and half of my bocconcini basil tomato sandwich.

Came home after dog walking volunteer and was hungry at 9:30. However, during the session he hypnotized me to not eat after 9.

I didn't touch anything except water.

I think it's working. :)

Stay tuned! Updates by next Fri.

Stay strong,
XOXO
Rena