3rd Session

Hey lovelies,

It's working. Definitely.

Really, it's quite amazing. I have not binged, or come even CLOSE to ANY sort of out of control eating for an entire week.

I ate when I felt hungry, stopped when I was full. I haven't been able to clean my plate most of the time even when the portions are medium sized.

I had a bit of an urge once, just once. I was reaching for the carton of icecream when I asked myself the questions my therapist hypnotised me to use. Do I need this? Will I feel bad about this later? If my sister (little sister, she is quite a bit over weight and I try my best to help her control her eating) were to reach for this, would I approve?

No, No, No.

Three quick no's later, the fridge was shut, spoon back in drawer and all cravings gone.

Holy crappers.

I've also been more keen on exercise. I dunno, I just WANT to move now. It's so weird.

The therapist has also offered me more free sessions. He is amazing. 4 hours would total to about... $450-600 Canadian... and he's doing it all for free since I'm having so much progress. Wow.

However, there is some bad news:

My mom is on to me. At least, she's unhappy about the changes in my eating habits. She's unhappy about my being a vegetarian (She wants me to go back to being pescatarian.) and the fact that I leave food on my plate.

She's the classic type of mom who shows her love by feeding you. *sigh*

I know she's just caring for me, but she needs to understand that I'm sick and tired of carrying these extra 20+ pounds around.

Anyways, I wanted to weigh myself for the first time this week, but I realized I just drank a bowl of soup and a lot of water. :(

Will weigh myself tomorrow morning.

Hope all is going well with you guys. I love all your blogs and comments. Even if I don't comment on your blogs or reply to the comments, I read almost every single one. It really means so much to know that there are other people struggling with their weight, the control, and are able to understand how I feel.

Stay strong!
XOXO
Rena