Diet Post #1

I've been on this site for a while now, reading the posts by these amazing people telling their stories and struggles regarding their weight and self image. Here's mine:

First of all, I do not have an ED, nor am I trying to achieve an ED. I am simply a girl with self image issues trying to get a better body. Honestly, there are some days when I look in the mirror, and think to myself: Hey, you look pretty good today. However, there are also some days when I feel 20, 50 or 100 pounds heavier than I actually am.

My goal weight doesn't have much to do with being skinny enough to see all my bones, or fitting into a size 00. In fact, I don't want to be skinny enough that I lose my breasts and hips, with my hip bones jutting out underneath my shirt. I'm not saying that that is not attractive, because on certain people, it most definitely is. However, that look is not for me. My ideal female body IS one with a flat stomach and barely - if not touching thighs, but also one with breasts, hips and an hourglass figure.

From tomorrow on, (Well, today, since it is 12:51), this blog will be my food diary, my thought diary, along with random babbles and such that come and go throughout the day.

I pray, I pray, I pray, to not be the 'chubbygirl' anymore.

I want to be the light, cute skinnyminny that the guys scoop up and toss in the pool.

I want to be the small asian girl that people want to hug and protect and cuddle.

From now on, before I eat anything, I will come here and read a post. That should help.

Thanks so much for reading and posting. It means the world to me.

XOXO

Rena