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Hello Lovelies,

I am better since my last post. There was a lot of unresolved shit flowing out of that one. But that stuff is cool now.

I have an exam in an hour and a half that I haven't really studied for. Ah well, not that I really need to.

I dunno... I've been feeling really, well, numb. Kind of just going through the motions.

This past weekend I went out with a few friends to the beach. It was too cold for bathsuits, thank God, but still warm enough to be enjoyable. We watched the sunset together, three girls in a tangle of arms, lets and hair. I caught myself thinking that I am so happy to have a best friend who isn't super thin. She's taller than me, with really thin legs, but her torso is thicker. She weights a little more than me due to the height difference but that really doesn't matter. I was just thinking how I am happy to have a friend who I am not constantly jealous of.

It feels nice to know that she understands where I'm coming from.

On a different note,

I've been really bloated lately.

And it's not just because I'm lactose intolerant.

I've been taking my pills, and avoiding dairy.

But I'm always rolling in pain after I eat.

That sounds like it'd be great motivation to not eat... but,

It's annoying. I'm uncomfortable because of hunger pangs before I eat.

I'm hurting from being so bloated after I eat.

Well, then...

It's getting out of hand really. My waist is 2 inches thicker after eating than when I first wake up. All because of bloat.

I just had some oatmeal with a few baby carrots and some dijon mustard & avocado dip. Hope it doesn't hurt during my exam.

Sorry this post is so boring. My life is kind of on a stand still.


Blah,

Rena